OTHER SIDE OF THE ALTAR

Forever was what we promised each other

When we would eat our gari soakings and peanuts

When we would watch our pirated copies of Hollywood’s latest

Forever was what your embrace promised

Forever was what my breaths heard and sighed to

Why am I sitting here, hiding my tears behind my smiles?

While you kiss some bride who isn’t me

Why should our story be one of the stats that never made it?

Tell me why I should be the cool one who makes it to your wedding and my funeral?

Explain to me why she gets to hold your manicured hands

When I was the one who kissed away your calluses?

And now haters who don’t have enough brains left for tact will feign ignorance and ask me point blank;

Why I am not the bride.

But I didn’t come to hate

My heart has refused to let me sleep

Ever since you went away

Giving me so many ideas,

Most of which are hopeful that you would come back to me.

It kept telling me we couldn’t share what we have and……………………..

I’m sorry, what we HAD and lose it.

Boy, was my heart wrong.

So today, I came.

I came to give my heart proof of what it has been denying all this while.

You are gone now.

Definitely gone!

You are the one who got away.

My heart is going to be so broken when it learns the truth.

I didn’t want the cynic in me to be right

But she is. It is really you at the altar.

Without me.

So when you are done kissing your bride,

I will be here.

To give you my last smile

Because now, it is good bye for real.